Married life

So I've been married a month and one day now...Crazy right? But each day I KNOW that I married the right man for me. He is amazing. Even when I am a horrible person, mean, un-responsive, and even un-loving, he loves me still.

I have been having a hard time dealing with Brian working out of town - this is the 3rd week in a row. This past weekend was the hardest on me and like Priscilla said in her Maid of Honor Speech, I guess I am being selfish, because I want him home with me. But the sad thing is I never thought about how HE must be feeling. When he told me that he missed me just as much as I missed him my heart melted. I feel so bad for being "moody" towards him this past weekend I hate that I let my emotions get the best of our weekend together.

Brian is amazing. I Love him with my whole heart.

love and hugs
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My love

I can't believe I get to marry the man of my dreams in just 2 short days!! Brian has been amazing throughout everything - even me snapping at him...he's always looking out for me making sure I"m eating enough and taking care of myself. He's amazing...I cant' wait to be Mrs. Msal!!

Memorial Day

Yesterday was memorial day. Brian and I were invited to 2 different parties, one where a bunch of his friends were going to be, and the other at my sisters house. Brian decided that we would go to my sister's house - he said that he really wanted to go to my sister's house over the other party, but secretly I'm wondering if he knew I would have enjoyed myself better at my sister's vs. the other party and that is why we went....I don't know but whatever is true we had a great time - the both of us. Not just one of us. I love how he looks out for me and my enjoyment.

On the way back from the party Brian and I were talking about different things and he just really encourages me A LOT. I don't have alot of self esteem, it has been torn down over the years from people who really don't care about me. Brian is trying to reverse this and build me up. He tells me things like I'm very musically talented, that I'm beautiful etc... things where my self esteem have plummeted to zero. He is amazing. I love how he makes me feel :)

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This past weekend

This past weekend Brian and I went to An Engaged Encounter Retreat. We "had" to go for our pre-marriage "counseling" But about 1/2 way through the first session I realized that this was more than "marriage Counseling" Even though Brian and I had spent HOURS talking about EVERYTHING under the sun we both realized that we hadn't talked about everything. The weekend had a bunch of sessions - after each session either the guys or the girls would leave to write, to answer questions given to us from the leaders and then in about 15 minutes they were joined by their significant other to discuss what they had written. Well Friday night I was in tears both times we got together and talked. Brian listened intently without judging as I told him my worries, fears, thoughts and dreams about our upcoming wedding and marriage. Brian wrote me things that made me fall head over heels in love with him all over again. I can not believe what an amazing guy God has placed in my life....he is everything that I never knew I needed and more.

I have to say that EVERY engaged couple should go to one of these - they do not teach any "doctrine" so even a "baptist" couple or a "catholic" couple or "fill...in....the .....blank" couple would grow leaps and bounds by this information that they give. If you're saying "well I'm already married" well they have one for you married couples too! Go here to check it out.

During the weekend I asked Brian about a ministry that I seen was lacking in our church (I had mentioned it a few weeks before to him but we really hadn't talked about it since then) We discussed it more and he gave his ideas, I put mine in. It is so exciting to be able to work as a team together in ministry...I'm actually really getting excited. I love how he WANTS to serve with me, he wants my ideas and doesn't knock them down or judge me for them. He listens and explains things that I really didn't "get". I really think we can do this ministry together!

I can't wait to marry that boy~!

Screen Doors and Chairs

Brian has been working some crazy hours lately and just goes home and wants to drop dead....Well last night he called me at 6 p.m. and said he was on his way back to the house. (and this was EARLY compared to when he's been calling me) Well I had been painting all day trying to get the house finished before the end of may (anyone want to help me??) So I made dinner and had it on the table when he got home. After dinner I expected him to go and drop on the couch but instead he put the screen in the front door - because he knows that I like to have the door open...then he put the bar chairs together that we got for our shower - they look amazing :) Then we took down these crazy things that were on the cupboards - it totally opens up the kitchen. Then we started drawing out the plans for a patio :) He is SO much better at figuring the whole "look" of the patio than I am!! He had some amazing ideas. After all that THEN we sat down and watched a movie together - it was an amazing night :) We got a bunch of stuff done and we got to spend time together!!

I felt so special

At my high school graduation on April 26th, one of my guy friends came up to congratulate me and gave me a hug (right in front of a group of very conservative people that we both know). It was such a little thing, but it meant so much to me. I was surprised that he was even there, because he's very busy. It just made my day.